Tuesday, May 22, 2007

oh wells. i was just being a tv junkie today after i was done studying stats. and there was this advert about this upcoming show on channel u on weeknights at 10pm. remember my mom watching it on dvd afew weeks back and it was really about this guy, hu was police detective, and he found a phone that could contact his dad hu was also a cop and passed away years ago in the line of duty. and in doing so, he obtained means of solving crimes there was no evidence of, his girlfren was paralyzed from a car accident from young. he change it, prevented the accident but his girlfren became a totally different person cus she was abducted and became the daughter of a crimelord. well sometimes life plays games with us, making us live and work for the ideal which is not really that ideal in the end. his girlfren changed and without memory due to a changed history almost kills him herself. funny how sometimes u do things for the good of others but circumstances never let them appreciate you or like the cop, u probably just get caught in a crossfire with a high likelihood of u getting hurt. oh wells.

anyway i was checking up the word conviction on the dictionary and its so interesting that the same word can sound so postive, yet, negative and even neutral.

1. condemnation, being convicted from a crime
2. a the firm opinion of belief
interesting that some people are not convicted at all, some people feel they are convicted, some people are still in the state of being convicted.

so wad does my conviction mean to u. is it the life that u have resigned yourself to, like a condemnation, or a prison sentence, stuck in an environment or life that stinks. is it living a life where u have a firm belief in wadever u live for, that it is something worth giving your best shot for. or r u just one of those people stuck in the middle where u just dont know, if thats the case, are u veering toward condemnation or a firm belief? conviction can mean many things, so can life. life could suck, life could be the present and future u live for, or life could be one big question mark.

and u could just be like me, u might only know one or two out of the three meanings before u actually looked at the dictionary, but looking at the dictionary sure lets u identify and identify with which meaning u wanna adopt. same goes for life right, wad is life to u? until u truly find it, until u truly find the meaning of it, until u look at it from the 3 dimensional view, u will never know. but are u gonna find it, or r u gonna lose it and lose yourself or r u gonna waste it wandering / wondering.

and u know something else, theres this phrase that says speak your mind. i think its such a commonly used phrase that everyone assumes everyone can read everyones mind, but speak ur mind reminds us that its mouth and not the brain that speaks, next time u hope someone would say something, maybe not tell them directly but lead them on, perhaps pride is the stumbling block, oh wells, pride, its been a generation curse anyway.... no wonder sorry seems to be the hardest word to say and an even harder word to inject acutal feeling and conviction into....

|cowpoo| 8:06 PM|

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